last night i had like 9 hours of sleep!!  oohh...how it felt great!! i love to sleep!! i guess that's why i'm awake right now cause usually i would be knocked out....

i'm so excited for my fun-filled weekend!! yay!! soooo happpyyy!!  i may just go into details...but i'm not!! haha sorry

so i got a new fish....it's a reddish purple beta fish!! i got it like a week ago and i'm surprised that it's alive since it traveled to fresno!! haha....i named it lucky...so hopefully it will be my good luck charm.  i don't know if it's a girl or a boy but i want it to be a boy so i named it lucky.  it's kind of crazy or just hyper....it can also be blind....not sure yet....i have to still observe it.  but it's hyper because it keeps on swimming like crazy or whatever fishes do...and whenever i feed it...it hella searches for the food for days and sometimes it misses it!! aaaww...lucky is sooo special!! 

hi sunshine!! 

so i went home this weekend...pretty awesome!! everytime i go back it's like i never want to leave again!!  spent some quality time with the homies and took weird ass pictures...i had fun with y'all!!

i miss my family already...and i just got back like a few hours ago.  my pops was so sweet for washing my car...i was going to do it but he volunteered!! thanks daddy!!

ok...so i'm pretty pissed and irritated!! so i found out some pretty disturbing news that happened a long time ago that made me so mad!! i hate fuckin liars...i honestly thought you wouldn't do anything like that....you lied and i can't believe i trusted you...all those times!! i hate the feeling of being irritated or annoyed....it stresses me out.  eehh i'll get over it!!

oh that reminds me....i need to change my xanga name....it's pretty stupid!! what was i thinking.....because of you?? judienjonray?? fuck it!!

finally back in fresno...it's insanely hott!!

since being in fresno, i've noticed that i was homesick.   i miss my parents and my friends!! i was homesick even before i left stockton!! haha....yeah...so my roomies are thinking that i'm depressed because my appetite has declined to the max!! yeah...i lost a total of 5 pounds already!! haha crazy shit!! yeah and they also think i'm a bisexual!! i wonder what gave them that idea?!?! but they're totally wrong about that one!! haha...

since my last blog...a lot of people have been asking about what happened to me and jonray!! eehh...it wasn't working out anymore!! so those who thought i could do better....give yourself an applause!! because i surely can do better!! i'm not going to go on into details about it...but i obviously am moving on and i think it's pathetic that you're not!! so please....let me be!!

to sum it all up...i am very happy!! the happiest i have ever been...probably the happiest i will ever be!! thanks to a few people....you are my sunshine!! oh yeah...i'm coming home next week...so prepare for the quadpod reunion!! haha i'm soooo excited to see you ma's!!

craziness went on this weekend!! 

so...i was at home saturday afternoon...and the phone rings...my mom answers it and it's my inang (grandma) she was home by herself and couldn't breathe!!

i rushed over there as fast as i can!! i've never been so scared/nervous...i thought i was going to have a heart attack!! all these thoughts ran into my head!! what do i do? what is wrong with her? is she going to be alright?

i ran into the house and find my inang in her room breathing heavily with short breathes.  i tried to calm her down...and i headed to their computer and sorted through their mail to find an adress to call an ambulance.

they finally came and helped my inang...i watched curiously and prayed so hard!! i stayed at the hospital with her for a couple hours. i watched the nurse and asked questions about my inangs health. 

i'm glad she called us because i don't know what would have happened if she didn't!! she's doing better now...she went home already so that's good!! i  her more than anyone in this world!! and i mean it!!

on another note...

yes....me and jonray broke up!! mmmm....oh well

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to my cool pal JULIAN!!  biatch now you can buy me cigarettes!!

anywhooo....summer....is crap!! eeehhh not really!! spending a lot of time with my mama and being her "assistant."  i start summer school on monday!! boo...and mainly spending time with the babah!!

right now i'm with my crazy nephew and my sister at their new and improved house!! we went to the mall and have dinner...i swear my nephew is mentally insane or maybe hyper...he can't stop moving...but that doesn't make me stop loving him. 

and on a final note...my cell phone isn't working!! miss paxton druled all over my phone and now i have to replace it!! so whoever calls me...i'm sorry...leave me a message!! hopefully i'll get my new phone tomorrow!!

last night was insane!! i went to tracy because i was very frustrated and confused with my parents...well mainly my mom...i guess i was with her too long!! so we chilled at the bean and they were drinking....i was like the only one who wasn't drinking...booo!! but poor ash got shit faced and threw up in her car....poor girl!! sometimes people frustrate me because why are people going to let other people get all shit faced and not take care of them?!?! they just left her out on the curb...dumb ass people leave other people to take care of them...but i'm not that mad because ash is my girl...and i love her!!

finally....HAPPY FATHER'S DAY...especially to my daddy...because i love him oh soo dearly!! and other daddy's too!!